i'm so fucking sick of feeling like this. feeling so empty. feeling so dead. please please please make it all go away just let me be happy, let me be alive.??? i just want it all to stop.

  would anyone even notice???

    i'm so so sick of crying, make the tears go away!!!  please???  look at me, i'm a hidious monster

so so so much i'm sorry, please forgive me???

  i lied. 

 every smile, every laugh... they are all so fake

 but what else is there to do??? 

i'm sorry for everything i've ever done...i'm sorry for being mE.

i'm so sick of crying, make the tears stop

so many questions...so little time for answers:

why does depression exsist? i'd really like to know. maybe it's a way of reminding us all that we are human, i guess that's what it does for me. i wounder what i would be like without depression in my life...maybe i'd be a popular prep (in whch case i'd rather just be depressed!) is it possible for you to completely run out of tears? or is it just a continuous cycle that our body takes care of...like water. did you now that there is a horemone in our wrists that is released when you cut them? i wounder who discoverd that...or maybe that's just an excuse people give to others who ask them why they do it...hey, i've used it!!!

well, i don't really know where i'm going with all these stupid question things...i guess i'm just trying to get my mind off of my other thoughts i'm sure i've confused everyone by now(including myself) so i'm just gonna quit while i'm ahead

love

hey,

you may know who i am, and you may not, my goal is to be anonymous. this is just a site where i can express the way that i'm really feeling (cause everyone has a little emo in them right?!). so this way i can get these thoughts out of my head and not have to bother anyone in particular w/ all my problems, so if you feel like commenting, i would definitely appreciate it but don't feel like you have to.

lots of love to everyone!!

-mE-

so this is how i feel...